I was thinking today about my relationship with my mom. I remember just before her passing and afterwards, I was worried about what our relationship would be like. My main worry was that I would forget her, what she was like, what it felt like to be around her and hear her laugh, how she interacted with people. For a while after her passing I would comb through my memories to try and remind myself. I feel like I'm in a really different place now. I realized that a lot of the same things that apply to relationships with people in this world apply to relationships with people in the next. I don't try to make my memories the foundation of our relationship. It has to be a living growing thing, not based in the past. What that means now is that I'm always conscious of her presence, that she, probably, or at least the way I imagine it, has work to do in the next world that keeps her busy and happy, and that she's always there for us. That's a good feeling. And it makes me happier than what I was trying to do before.
P.P. I was just lamenting the fact that I couldn't find our USB cord to connect our camera with our computer so I could share all these fun pictures we have, and then I looked down and it was right there next to the computer.